I'm not happy. way more happy around anyone else and never around me. always in such a bad mood around me, but are so happy around everyone else. You are so cold to me. You recoil away from my touch and kisses, but are touchy around everyone else. You flirt to everyone else, but rarely to me seriously or even jokingly. It's insulting and hurts me. It'd be fine if you did that jokingly and showed actual affection to me. Even when drinking, not that way to me. Just everyone else. You can say Iâ€™m jealous Â but I have right to be. If anyone should get that kind of treatment, it should be me. Or even others and me, not others and not me. You don't show me affection on any kind of regular basis, it's sporadic, even if itâ€™s a little bit randomly, I eat it up, because I'm so starved for Even when you drink around me, you never seem as happy. I've noticed it for a while. It seems like you'd be happier without me. I've been feeling depressed lately. It's because of this.
I see you happy around everyone else and it makes me sad because the only time I see that. It makes me feel like I can't make you happy. Like just with me because you feel like you have to be, not that you want to be or are really happy with me.
I feel that I give you the best of me and the best of you gets given to everyone else, the kids, your friends, etc. And I get left, normally you falling asleep or being too tired or stressed out. I got with you to be with you and i feel like I'm not getting that. I feel like I'm getting like 10% of you at most. I know been sick and stuff, but whenever not, it's like I come last. I always try to make you come first. The lack of date nights, time to talk and visit and be with each other has absolutely affected that. It also seems like it has been more after the cruise. We were here before that, now, not so much. It seems like the only time we do talk or spend any time together, it's spent fucking hate it. At times, it makes me want to die. I can't stand it anymore.